Category Archives: Pity Party

Maritime Magazine: In His Head

I am so far behind on things that I never posted a link to a radio documentary called In His Head on CBC’s Maritime Magazine. You see, it’s all about me. We all get headaches from time to time, but for most of us, it’s an issue that goes away with a couple of aspirin […]

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Expecto Patronum!

I’m a Drama Queen. An Academy Award-winning Drama Queen. When something is bothering me, and I can’t figure out what that something might be, I just throw everything into a pot and stir it all up. I deliberately make everything as bad as it possibly can be. I call forth the Dementors from Azkaban. I […]

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You Win Some, You Lose Some

My mother delighted in telling everyone that I was a know-it-all — a highly-educated pain in the ass. In the complicated way that families are, she seemed so gleeful when circumstances knocked me on my keester. I wonder what she would say to me now that I’ve learned that I was right, and a legion […]

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Eyes Wide Open

I have a few quirks. About 15 years ago, I pulverized a bone in my hand in a testosterone-rich karate accident, and it could only be repaired through plastic surgery. Since anesthetic and I aren’t natural dancing partners, I convinced the anesthesiologist to administer a local that would only deaden my arm. A side benefit […]

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True Confessions

Pain is a great leveler. I write that to explain why I had an unexpected reaction last year when I learned that doctors had misdiagnosed my neuro-endocrine tumor, and that I was likely headed for surgery. I didn’t want to tell my family, but not for the reasons you might expect. Over the last two […]

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Gray Anatomy

Sometimes a few tears can wring the sadness from a soul. The times when I’ve been able to cry for myself are rare, but I can still be touched by beauty and the pain that others must bear, so I sought out this song by a favorite artist. And as I listened and the tears […]

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Full Circle

All good things must come to an end. That title made for a killer final episode of Star Trek: The Next Generation, and it neatly encapsulates my next installment in the Levangie chronicles. The first phase of my experimental drug trial finished today and, if it began with cautious optimism, it died with a sharp […]

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May You Live in Interesting Times

I’m living in interesting times and the Chinese are right: it is both a blessing and a curse.* Over the next month, I need to determine what comes next. Do I follow a conservative line—Cripes! I cringe every time I define myself with that word, no matter what context—or do I throw caution to the […]

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I Would Like Some Cheese With My Whine

Funny what excites some men. A few weeks ago, when Kristina noticed that I have a modest two-pack, I felt flush with potential. Perhaps it wasn’t too late to become what I might have been. I’ve always been one of the fittest people I know. I was training for my sandan (third-degree black belt) in […]

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The Meaning of Hope

Hope. I banished the word from my lexicon more than two decades ago. With an illness as long and as intractable as the one I have endured, it was just too painful and dangerous for me to throw my faith behind any one person or any new therapy. Much better to stay grounded, to live […]

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